Ballz.. ballz.. you took away my dream.

He ditched me.. I got him into music. Every Ad/unplugged/on a roll i chase after him. Literally begging him to play. He's good, but i never needed him. I could have formed tons of bands. But the CRI dream was ours. I'm sorry to say, he betrayed me.

He let me down. I love him as a brother. I love him as a friend. I will support him. I tried to support him. I went with him to Pune. I got the people that mattered to him with me to Pune. I tried. But I couldn't because everytime i thought about it, all I could feel was that I had been betrayed. I want the band to crash. Fall apart. I hate the very nature of the band. I hate their arrogance. I hate their success. I wanted that success.

When we were shitty musicians, we went to those gigs together. We fought together. It was our dream. We saw CRI together. We saw everything together. And then he just left me, in the lurch, and went and succeeded on his own. That makes me the failure doesn't it? The reason we always failed? Me!! And he tries to maaro random senti and make statements that for him are like apologies, but i cannot accept them. I cant do this, it eats me up from inside, everytime i see them jamming. It just kills me, kills something inside of me.

It wont do, I wont let him make me hate my life. I want to hurt him. I don't need him, i dont want him, i dont care. Fuck you. Go play with your Steel Dragon. I don't want to play colourful with you. Fuck you.

Go follow your dreams, they used to be our dreams.